I was first diagnosed with depression at around 15. Its runs in my family. I was also diagnosed with PTSD due to incidents in my previous job. During early years it was just having low moods and being quiet or withdrawn.. I've always been the type of person whereby I cold be in a crowd of friends, but still feel alone. I've always worked through it and continue to do so to this day. But as I've gotten older the worse the the depression has become. For me it comes in waves. I can go weeks feeling fine, but back it comes. In 2016 I was made redundant from a job that I loved. a few months later I had lost my home, my partner walked out with my youngest son and I was left facing £19,000 of debt. Not only that my car was a money pit and on its last legs. I was at my lowest point. The thoughts I was having, I do not wish to say but you can probably imagine. I'd decided to end it as the pain was unbearable. It is wasn't for a friend I would not be typing this now. But things are getting better. I'm struggling daily. I'm now a single parent, I have a job again. Money is tight and I dread a big bill or a costly repair on my car. But things are getting better. I have up and down days. The slightest thing can set me off. Now I'm a lump but men do cry. I'm not looking for sympathy for writing this. But more in the hope of helping others. There is a light. I focus on my car to take my mind off things and find keeping myself busy is good too . Who knows what the future will bring.
I'd love to hear from anyone else who suffers the same. For those that have never experienced it please watch a video call " I havea black dog"
All the best
Edited by Jim1978, 05 June 2017 - 08:23 PM.